What if I didn't get the CB scholarship and couldn't pay the $12,500 to go study abroad. Truly, for a very long time I thought to myself "Don't get your hopes up, what are the odds of getting the scholarship." But somehow I forgot that my going to Germany depended greatly on that scholarship. Instead I carelessly went ahead and planned my next year in Germany. I started to look for things I might need there, clothes I might want while I was away, things I would take and things I would leave. And I wasn't taking anything seriously, it was all about going to Germany, but I had no back up plan.
Today, I realized that. I'm starting to stress about that and really I don't know what I should do. I was thinking maybe fundraisers, a job is definitely an option.
Maybe I'll ask my uncle if he can give me a job in his office...
I don't know. Maybe I can get a job a my mom's job. They won't hesitate since they love my mom.
No matter what I do, I need to get my act together and start saving. I calculated what I have and together with the $2000 scholarship I can receive if I don't get the full scholarship, I have about $6000. That's barely half of what I need, which is $12500.
You know when you're so full of "What do I do now?" that you kinda feel like you want to run away, or just go out and get lost? If you don't know then, great, hope you never feel that way. But if you do know then... that's how I'm feeling. Except there's nowhere for me to go and no way to get out.
So here's one I found, "I've got troubled thoughts and a self esteem to match, what a catch." -Patrick Stump
the AFS Global Leaders! I got $1,500 from that! Note, you might not get as much since it depends a lot when you apply and other factors. They started accepting in December and I applied in January!
ReplyDeleteI'll check that out. But seriously I need a job!!!
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