A Happy Meal Without a Toy

Hallo, mein Leser!

The man who said that May 21st was the beginning of the end probably feels like a little kid who got a happy meal without a toy. Okay, I'm done being mean, haha.

Today was the PDO, or Pre- departure orientation. Let me tell you that it was nice. It was about four hours long. AFS returnees spoke to us about their experiences and what it might be like for us, they went over rules, what to do if you need help. They talked to us about what you shouldn't do such as talk to your parents often, be in perpetual isolation in your room or on the computer. They talked about a lot of things.

Mostly it was just really cool to see all these kids that were leaving the country just like me. There were kids going to Germany, China, Thailand, Argentina, Turkey, Switzerland, Russia, Japan, France, Spain and I'm sure I left some out. The point is, when I saw that there were people that had been through this experience and others that were going to go through it, like me, it made me feel like I was part of this huge thing. A "cult" as one of the AFS returnees had jokingly put it. It's both comforting and a little scary. It made me see that I was just a few steps away from leaving, and it made me real nervous. 


I was pretty tense to the point that I sat in the back of the car coiled like a spring for forty five minutes. I'm pretty sure I pulled a muscle or something because I'm hurting all over now. Either way my nerves are nothing compared to the rush I feel now. I was envious of those going on summer programs, they get to leave sooner. But then again, they'll be there for only two months, not ten. Despite all my urge to go now, I also feel wary of leaving everything and everyone behind. asdlkfhasdflkhas;dolf. Sorry. This is kinda overwhelming. 


"Ready, set, go it's time to run!" -Bill Kaulitz (Did I mention I love this guy so much and that he just happens to be German?)

Nichts.

"Nichts" is German for "nothing."

Right now I feel like one of those people who is lost at sea and there is absolutely nothing to be seen, but blue emptiness. Since my last post I have only gotten one email from AFS and my second invoice which was a disappointment. They didn't mention the recent scholarship for me or Gello. The only changes made were deductions from contributions from the widget (a big thank you to my contributors Gloria and Alberto).

This feels like extreme, total abandonment.

This Sunday though, I do have an AFS Pre- departure Orientation with Sue (the interviewer)! This is going to be my second time there, and the third time I see her, which is cool because she's awesome. Also I'm pretty excited about meeting other AFS people, and we're getting AFS t shirts! I can't wait to wear them!

Things right now are pretty boring but in a few days things are going to start to pick up the pace... that is if the world doesn't end tomorrow, or saturday, or whenever these losers are say its going to end. -___-'

Also, I found out that BBC website has like this section or something like that, that has lessons in German. I absolutely love it! You get to hear conversations in German and then see how much you understood. It's been forever since I actually heard a conversation in German and its super cool. If you want to check it out click hither.

AFS! SEND ME EMAIL NOW. IT'S DRIVING ME NUTS.

"And if our final day is come, let's pretend to carry on. And if the end has now begun, live on." -Bill Kaulitz

Eureka!

That is what I thought, but ended up saying, "Holy crap!"
I was on the AFS website looking around and I found an entire list of the people going with AFS and their blogs! To see the marvelous blogs I have looted go here. Scroll down and you will see a rectangle with three columns, one for name, state, and blog scroll down to see the blog you'd like.


On another note, after I got that other scholarship and AFS- Germany accepted me, my email had been abnormally idle and that's setting my teeth on edge. So I've been trying to find ways to make the time go by faster. These things include reading, playing guitar, finding these blogs(!), and buying more music.

In my boredom I also find myself walking around my house saying random things in German. It's actually pretty funny. The phrases I use the most are "Was?" 'Ich wiess nicht" and "Ich will nicht." Which mean, "what," "I don't know," and "I don't want to." Coincidentally, I use them all when I'm in math class. I am horrible in math. 

Also, I was thinking back to when all this first started... in November, I think. It feels like ages ago. I started to feel extremely nervous then. In Germany, time is bound to go by just as fast, and I fear that is going to seriously suck.

Here's one from my recent musical infatuations,  "It's like time just slips away." -Craig Mabbit